Take a little piece of my heart

2010-02-06T02:20:00.004+08:00

i hate to admit it. tumblr is cool. so i shall vacate blogger for it. thanks and damn you dan for tempting me there. mainly also cause tumblr.com sounds way cooler than blogspot.com. and this blog is just so stale already. so yea. byebye. off to: http://121419.tumblr.com/

2010-02-04T01:57:00.002+08:00

the week of school is drawing towards an end. today over= celebrations=)

jam packed weekend. Friday sat sunday all got crazy lots of things happening. WW meet up, des cs kez meet up, japo lesson, fatboy's muay thai and maybe meet up with dennis the menace.

wah. i'm very tired actually. can i just grab my rum and run off to the beach with you? pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

2010-02-02T20:29:00.002+08:00

把你從生命刪除根本就是個定律，
遊戲一開始就是這樣玩。
既然如此那我們為什麼那麼投入？

變態的我們越墮落越幸福。
結果沒有在乎過。
下一站又在哪裡？

故事會不會也有這樣的完結篇？
我期待墮落。
你呢？

2010-01-31T21:41:00.002+08:00

jap lesson. is farking sian. haha. basically i'm just clowning around the whole time. hope i will muster the determination to do my homework and read my notes for once this week. yes. lunch with tw and zy san at macdonalds. prosperity burger for the lose. hate fast food!!!!!! i need korean food. now.

anyways. this weekend cleared up quite alot of school stuff. continuing to clear it like now. but watching AI is priority. this season's damn zai. and manu vs arsenal match later. hurrah.can't wait. shall go for jog first.

received a package from tomtom just now. nice. great stuff from japan=)

and it make me wonder why the fark am i bloody even thinking about random things like why some people behave that way and why some priorities are so weird. it's their business what. not mine. lol. damn random.

one million and one scandals. tiger woods. john edwards aide biography about his escapades. john terry. but seriously, why must we judge other people's affairs? so farking lame. a relationship is between 2 person what. why do they have to be responsible to any1 other than each other? and whatsmore, sex and love are topics that really has no right or wrong. if you feel like cheating on some1, then so be it. and if your spouse can't take that then just farking divorce. if not, shut up and suck it up. no? thus marriage is over-rated. yup.

the smiths rock.
a light that never goes out rock.
next week rock.
but next week expenditure don't rock at all. probably going to go pock.
broke like a dog.

2010-01-30T21:44:00.002+08:00

conga's birthday today.

cool ass. just random drinks and food. damnnnnnnnnnnnnnn full. can't believe i booked ippt to be on 20th with some of the dudes. determination. chum on.

the new whisky cocktails rox. argentine white sucks big time. tsingtao ftw. chill out friends ftw.

and when you know you can't depend on someone for anything you shouldn't care less. so yea. whatever. do what you deem right. if you think it is. yeah yeah. live our own lives the way we want it eh.

can't believe the book i bought for conga he has it. and it's a damn damn damn unorthodox book. crazy.

andi have piles of work to do, competition prep to finish, projects lined up for my attention and jap lesson tmr at 10am. i'm so so so so buried.

oh i know a dirty word.
hello, hello hello, how low.

2010-01-30T02:56:00.001+08:00

how broke am i now? i need to go down to kallang to collect refund for killers tickets before i have money for kaiyi's party. dang!

how to survive a potentially expensive month ahead? die.

2010-01-29T00:07:00.004+08:00

i don't know tumblr seems like it's inviting the world of strangers into your world. just weird for me. concept and layout's cool though. yea.

today was damn xiong day. freaking lessons lessons lessons like mad and what's more lack of sleep. impromptu dinner with sloth at imperial treasure cityhall. nice. very happy with purchases of k swiss funky red socks and bata retro shoes=)

i'm always very afraid of taking up people's time. like even close friends. i'm afraid i'm too close or impose myself too much on the other party sometimes. i don't like people feeling obliged to go out with me. and i'm always paranoid and worried about those possibilities. i'm just damn bloody insecured about such stuff. weird.

and tori's lyrics is damn zai:

so you found a girl with really deep thoughts.
what's so amazing about really deep thoughts?
boy you best pray that i bleed real soon.
how's that thought for you?

2010-01-28T02:36:00.002+08:00

dinner with xinyi and kel after so so long was obviously nice. haha. the food at this mediterranean place was uber weird. haha.

chiong tutorials like mad. new policy making me zai but mad. rarrrrrrr.

i know it's silly. and childish. but sometimes, i still want to be your hero.

and no, i'm already back where we're all suppose to be. but just to let it linger.

2010-01-27T02:15:00.003+08:00

die. 8am lecture. now still here. gg.

drama mama interview prgm of andy lau. haha. not very entertaining.

but his jiang hu logic of treating friendship is damn zai. once a person is your friend, you don't care what he/she did, they are always right. simple and zai right. wow. haha. sounds stupid but zai.

shall try to sleep. rarrrr.

2010-01-27T00:52:00.002+08:00

changing landscapes tutorial is totally fun. and i think i'm beginning to fall in love with photog. i need a sleek and zai camera nowwwwwwwwwwwww.

a lot of tutorials but alot of outings and gatherings to plan as well. cool.

think i'm going to do quite well this sem.

all this life running through my veins. going to waste?

2010-01-26T01:47:00.002+08:00

i realise i always act like i'm super free. organising this, organising that.

and then i realise i am really quite free. not much work to do in school leh. biz projects at a standstill as partners are to busy. tempted to forge on without them first. lol. too free!

wed dinner with xinyi and kel should be great. sat ky's party should be awesome too. and not to mention sat arsenal vs man u!!!!!!!!

pawn them. come on!!!!

not emo tonight after too much emo last night.

with arms wide open is so sec 1. ohmegosh. nice. oh. was thinking about those sec 1 & 2 days. ok. good thoughts to bring to bed.

2010-01-24T22:03:00.002+08:00

jap lesson again today. i shall survive. then lunch with zy and tw. and sit at food opera watch cj7. wtf mans. lol.

then shop for dx's gift. wah. i'm damn poor can. haiz.

and i need a drink now. like now now now.

2010-01-23T02:34:00.002+08:00

disaster. killers concert got cancelled. damn disappointing.

and i feel too lazy to go out. like totally sianzzz.

don't know why.

and afternoon nap with the pool breeze blowing in. i imagine just lying by the beach, holding on to someone i treasure and falling asleep.

but then again. i fear tsunamis.

and aeroplane rides. roller coaster rides.

and i remember the first time i was not afraid on a plane. you didn't even know.

2010-01-22T02:12:00.002+08:00

come on. believe in love you cynic.

you think life's a fairytale, and when it's not you can't deal with it.

yea.

2010-01-22T02:04:00.002+08:00

watching music & lyrics now after getting a whole load of movies from sloth.

biggest impression: pop goes my heart.

most true potrayal: the in inevitable awkwardness after sex?

long weekend ahead. can't wait to tear into it.

i'm ready.

2010-01-22T00:32:00.002+08:00

lessons this sem seem to flow past easier. which is good.

epic dinner outing. spanning 3 hours plus for those of us early. the food was incredible. worth the wait. and the bloody black bitch who came in to kbkb can go die. and her pussy ang moh bf can go with her.

of course not all of us suit such dinner outings. and there you have it, a new measure of friendship. the ability to enjoy a truly long dinner. haha.

what good moments. whisky deal was not too bad actually. another pub with a bottle under my name. dun cry for my liver. lalalala.

2010-01-21T11:22:00.002+08:00

a true example of what i love and how things in life can just be so wonderfully random. how i could discover one of my favourite singers of all time through a birthday gift from a primary school friend i haven't seen since P6, 8 years down the road. that's amazing isn't it?

change & time.

2010-01-21T11:03:00.003+08:00

if there are no silly affairs and foolish love when we were young, then we would have lived for nothing. our older years would be an empty space with nothing to look back on.

we would not be able to drive past a corner in the neighbourhood, and wince in embarrassment at ourselves, smile at those great moments we spent wasting our youth away. when really that's the only way it should be spent.

sometimes i wish i wasn't so nostalgic, so melancholic, so emotional, so dramatic, so petty, so generous, so persistent. all these things seem to make me so sad and poor at times. but i know i will have it no other way. and sometimes it really made me impossibly happy and dreamy.

live wild. live in sanity. that's true madness, not losing your mind=)

should be a nice day ahead. i think. but it doesn't really matter.

Older chests reveal themselves
Like a crack in a wall
Starting small, and grow in time
And we always seem to need the help

Of someone else
To mend that shelf
Too many books
Read me your favourite line

Like time, there's always time
On my mind
So pass me by, I'll be fine
Just give me time

2010-01-18T14:40:00.003+08:00

before killers madness for sunday's concert, time to recap on emo songs since sec school days. this obviously up there. carrie's cover can go home sleep.

saw ken ang in school today. stupid dumb dumb was late for acct lecture. this is going to be a really nice semester. haha.

2010-01-17T01:08:00.001+08:00

直到和你做了多年朋友，才明白我的眼淚，
不是為你而流，　也為別人而流。

與世隔絕沒能修成正果，
閒聊中卻突然醒悟。
真諷刺。

2010-01-17T00:37:00.002+08:00

afternoon coffee at max brenner with ky to discuss our biz project. continued meeting at esplanade library cafe and sabo for tea and sushi. my gooness. the sushi sucked BIG time.

then buy mum's birthday gift. out of nowhere caught jack and allison. hehe.

and then meet the ac peeps. nice little dinner and then off to chijmes for drinks.

glad to be a listening ear to ken for some issues. very enlightening for myself on some fronts.

and tonight's such a rewarding night.

much jap homework yet to be done. tsktsk.

2010-01-16T02:14:00.002+08:00

it's just moments like that when you want to believe in pure simple love. no need to think and measure. no questions, just answers.

and tan hong ming is freakin cute=) good day tmr.

2010-01-15T14:19:00.002+08:00

yesterday was madness. utter havoc.

drinking at sentosa silosa by the sea. several near death xperience on the 2 storey high platform.

continued drinking at nus maritime building. and after one bottle of gin then vodka, another bottle of grey goose + baileys proved too much for cy. just went mad and started screaming like mad and punching kicking the whole world. in the end, had to send him home to his mega big house. should have stole all his cars as compensation.

cab driver must have thought wtf when he saw my half naked self on the road. gosh. crazy night. fucked up liver.

2010-01-14T01:01:00.002+08:00

3 hours lecture today was ta ma de..zzz. scale to right scae to left symmetrical also muz repeat 3 times. like hello...do we look like errr retards? good thing is tis lesson can walk to school with huiyan. nice.

lunch at megabites dreaming of striking toto with the peeps rock. haha.

eh, why you dress so nice? what do have on later? nothing. i just feel like wearing nice nice to school. can?

needs to get back into shape. and stop drinking so much. but tmr's drinking session with nus dudes. so gg. shall drink jus a little. haha. friday no school. yeah!!!

and omg omg omg. ww is coming back. nice. miss that bugger. go to stupid aust. ta ma de.

and goh poh seng died. like...two days after i asked ky...goh poh seng is dead right? wa...mouth v suay.

i'm wondering if i treat people nice only because i'm guilty. so whoever i'm nice to...please be careful.

split personalities forever.

2010-01-12T20:01:00.002+08:00

ok, i'm out of emo mode totally. the smallest of issues snap you in and then out of the bloody mode.

had to freaking take cab to lect cause damn late today. anyhow anyhow also got friends same lecture in the ss module. lucky. and the module is damn my cup of tea. nice.

tmr lecture's at 8 farking a.m. i so need to go out after that to shop or eat or walk about at some really cool place.

2010-01-12T01:11:00.001+08:00

5 shots of whisky didn't work. and i turn to sec school emo songs.

can't believe what a slave i am to lyrics and everything hidden between those lines.

以为在你身边那也算永远

2010-01-12T00:12:00.003+08:00

first day of school today. nice meeting the peeps after a mth plus break. and this sem feels damn bloody slack. cool.

can i just proclaim i feel like shit when i see such proclamations. like i know i'm over it and all. but it still feels like shit. and worse when i don't know about it till it hits in the face. like...there u have it! gosh.

and to think i wonder why i drink so much. it's just this inner simmering of shit! it's pathetic. like fucking late night emo shit full blown. i think we will cease to even talk soon. oh wells. fuck it. like i give a shit. like you give a shit that i give a shit. no shit.

2010-01-10T22:08:00.002+08:00

first jap lesson. quite cool la. with ozt tw and zy. then we went to eat go go curry at ion. wtf big portion. shop shop abit.

meet ky and sloth at vivo to go over to sentosa for drinks hike. jus lug whisky and start drinking and walking around sentosa. quite nice. dinner at vivo.

and school's s starting tmr. never been more carefree about it=)

2010-01-10T01:14:00.002+08:00

weather in singapore is fark. thus i have taken the public bus only once since comin back and cab four bloody times. lol. bring me back to hk pls.

lunch with xuan and poof was good. the usual stuff. bbq chicken's hot hot drum nearly killed me. so much so the nice korean manager gave me free milk to save my tongue. cool shit.

and tomorrow is first lesson for japo. and sentosa lag jag drinks hike. coolzzz.

2010-01-09T02:21:00.002+08:00

The vampire bites off the top of a building and loses his teeth. Another vampire says, 'Why are you crying? Those are your baby teeth.' And he says, 'No they're not. They're my adult teeth.' And the other vampires deserted him. The end.

just watched where the wild things are. got to be one of the best movies i've watched recently. totally my kind of movie. touching and cute.

let the rumpus begin.

2010-01-07T22:57:00.002+08:00

tennis was fun. random lazin about with fatboy sx n glen was cool too. boon tong kee was good for the first time ever. maybe i didn't have sg food for too long.

与世隔绝数天，却没能修成正果。
你呢？

2010-01-07T13:20:00.001+08:00

tennis. shiok. singapore's too hot man. needs to fly back to hk. nwwww.

如可分身飾演自己
會將心中的溫柔獻出給你

2010-01-07T00:24:00.002+08:00

finally back in singapore. so much things to catch up on.

macau and china was same same. hong kong was spectacular as usual. lan kwai fong drinks pawns all.

told myself this overseas trip is the deadline.

seeking cure through isolation.
detached from the world for 6 days and still i find myself standing here.
nirvana awaits. maybe hell.

2009-12-31T16:58:00.002+08:00

fancy words are really useless. declarations on facebooks by a million and one person on facebook. and what good does it do? will he/she swoon over your devotedness? can it change the way people feel?

we are always trapped in our own cocoons of feelings. we imagine a future for ourselves and the person we like and that precious little world is what matters ultimately. everything else are mere distractions.

one year on and i still remember the foolish things i said and did last year. how some foolish emotions made me give up some feelings in pursuit of others. convinced myself it was what i wanted. making someone else happy. even if i knew it would probably only make me miserable.

one year on i had the chance to look at the whole episode. and surely it's time to move on to a new phase. 2010 should be a good year. one last excuse to be emo this overseas trip. moonlight express to hong kong.

and the joke of this muse is you probably have them too. just that you muse about someone while i muse about you. the vicious cycle. till we meet.

2009-12-31T02:23:00.002+08:00

shopping for overseas stuff is shiok since it's endless spending. hundred of dollars get into taka coffers and it gives you the ultimate retail. and mum pays. so win. high tea rocks too. tired legs and fat belly sucks. needs to get fit.

having super mood swing due to impending overseas trip. omg, it's new year's eve already.

and this year's nyeve is ultimate cui diao i bet. i need to get someone dearest to me by my side now to drink and chill with me now. in marina bay view apartment, by the infinity pool. ok. not happening in a while. another 5 years perhaps.

when i'm no longer having an issue with intimacy anymore. 500 days of summer made me realise i am sick.

2009-12-29T22:39:00.002+08:00

outing wit hdan and fatboy. random and lousy shopping excursion, lunch at marina and buy spicy drumlets n sushi back to fatboy's place. nine was damn random movie. gym was anyhow. swim was nice. dinner was spicy. wrestler was fail. slacking is king. i like slacking. but going home is a whore.

shopping tmr for cold weather clothes tmr. that is nice since mother financed. but i'm not enthu about going overseas. first i hate taking plane. second i hate the hassle. third i want to slack in singapore with friends and family. and most importantly, nothing's occupying my heart this winter and so it's nothing to emo about during those ferry rides or plane rides. gg.

need alot of movies in my mac to bring overseas. rarrrr.

but i came to believe that if i watched closely, and desired, i might change the lives of those i loved on earth.

2009-12-29T02:09:00.002+08:00

legs hanging, breath held. in awkwardness we made promises we never could keep. and in a moment, the future became a chase for the same ecstasy and fulfillment. everything went back to that instant. everyday became a comparison, that could never match up.

and still i wait for that moment to be relegated to become a comparison. an affirmation instead of just passion itself.

but you know i lie. all the time.

a wonderful novel gives us this wonderful narrative.

if i told the world, i'll never say enough.
cause it was not said to you.

2009-12-26T22:24:00.002+08:00

erik's back. so cool. lol. went to eat ng ah sio ba kut teh but it's renovating. keppel road one ok ok la. and then off to old airport road to eat. nice. pool at marina was lame. lol. but oh wells, chit chat on the side was fun. haha. ws sx frank erik ky me jus random chats.

and off to durty nelly's for drinks, me erik and ky. nicest part. haha.

and randomly me and ky went to national library to read books. i have to say the view is inspiring for aspiring pub owners like me. haha. and bishamon ramen is damn good. sake is fuck. haha.

all in all a nice boxing day. some friends really can pick back up easily. some ah, god knows what i was thinking.

2009-12-26T01:43:00.003+08:00

xmas this year is really weird. it's quite a blur. all the emotions and thoughts just wander randomly. happy & emo thoughts existing happily together. maybe this is emo nirvana...zen?

i don't even have a wish this xmas. gosh, what have i done?

every year this period is emo. especially if it's overseas. maybe on 1st jan when i'm in hk there will be more insight on what's happening. last year's issues seem so far away now. it's only the 21st xmas and i'm feeling like there's nothing more already to be had.

resorting to alcohol highs and self induced enthusiasm is absolutely shameful. there is not even enough desire in me. in a way, this is ED. not erectile dysfuntion. rather emotional dysfunction.

then you look at me.
no, please don't.
bye bye bicentennial Man.

2009-12-25T01:37:00.002+08:00

shopping with ozt gets me another pair of jeans. watched a farking cui movie bodyguards and assasins. cui cui cui. quiznos was not bad but slightly weird conceptually.

baking at ws's place. then lunched at jurong point. and xmas eve party at my house with the khakis. good jolly fun. moderate drinks. i really must quit drinking before liver cnacer strikes. gosh.

xmas celeb tmr with family. and then boxing day with the maju peeps welcoming erik back home!!!=)

what a great end to the week.

so it is, like you said it would be.
life goes easy on me.
most of the time.

but you strip me of it's beauty.
like it should be.

2009-12-23T11:53:00.002+08:00

yesterday was a good day cause i had fantastic fishball noodles and char siew duck rice with ws after baking session. also i didn't bomb for a too slack sem although q sad some friends bomb like dog. oh wells. work harder next sem.

today will be a happy day cause shopping and watching movie with ozt. in fact i think i'm gg to be late!!!!

tmr will be a crazy happy day cause there is xmas eve party! hurrah!

2009-12-22T01:27:00.003+08:00

waking up early these few days. funky. baking baking baking. cool. today after delivering to my cousin at cbd area, ws and i decides to go shopping and food hunt at ion. i have to say lunch was certainly one of the more satisfying ones i ever had in town. bon bon soy garlic crispy wings, gyoza, spicy internal organs, pawn ass tako gindacho, each a cup. wa lao. zai.

and i'm quite happy with my uniqlo purchases. spending money is madness.

and night outing with the nus peeps and one random ntu girl jc went on from 9 till 1 plus. wtf. lol. discussion about japan trip became drinking games with kissing and transfers of drinks mouth to mouth. wtf. i have to say we are mad.

the week ahead is a blockbuster. today, later in the morning is baking plus results=) then wednesday will be movie plus shopping. thursday xmas eve dinner party with the khakis. friday family xmas dinner. saturday maju peeps outing with the long amiss erik. wow. craziness happiness.

hope tmr will be a good day. all my friends & i please get good results. yipee ya ya.

2009-12-18T23:04:00.001+08:00

after one whole day of relaxin at home, off to stagmont area to see sx and shaunna perform. the service reminded me of acjc days. reminded me of super emo song. not bad. quite fun. dinner at lot 1.

made two promises to myself today. no alcohol for 1 month. and not to give flying fuck about fucked up ppl anymore.

yea. uniqlo plus assasins tmr. nice.

2009-12-18T16:47:00.002+08:00

it's really alright to give excuses. i'm also ready to accept them.

just don't let me know that they are excuses. cause i was willing to believe them?!

fuckin stupid.

your choice.

2009-12-18T01:14:00.001+08:00

slacked at home today.

then delivered michelle's tart.

then random shopping in city hall. hmv session.

avatar pawns. the effects are marvellous. it's mindblowingly fresh perspective.

and finally good ol' drinks at durty nelly's. need to start pub on my own.

2009-12-16T22:39:00.002+08:00

i'm tired from a whole day of doing stuff. 4 hrs sleep and then interview with yang meh meh at 9am. after that rush to queensway for printing flyers. and right after that rush to meet nus peeps for jap trip discussion.

then chiong down to ws house for baking=)

in between all these, i took the time to go buy the tickets for avatar. must be 3D since it's bloody avatar. scared no seats.

but why should i bother? lol. weird perspective. sometimes we only see our own priorities, and do not see how sometimes people go out of their way.

that's why cs was pissed off with me yesterday. because i only saw my side of the issue. how i feel that being with another friend at that time was more important. i feel that it's justified. maybe it is. but it's still not considering other ppl's feeling enough.

switching back to today. maybe i feel that it's not justified for others to question especially when i took the effort to do that extra bit. to offer more than i should and often, i feel i treasure some relationships with some people more. way more than they do at least. and that is the truth.

but my experience yesterday has taught me to not be angry. or even disappointed too much by such incidences. maybe valid reasons justify people's actions and thoughts. and priorities especially make people act differently. values too.

because we're always prone to ignore others' goodwill and magnify their faults. doing the reverse for ourselves. that's true for me. and you.

and at this moment i choose to remind myself of that=) oh wells.

2009-12-15T17:44:00.003+08:00

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2009-12-15T00:58:00.002+08:00

totally into the pub idea. need $.

cbd boys was not really successful but it was definetly a good experience. and now a new venture with ws. this biz model makes much more sense. and wed lunch meeting with the nus peeps. woohoo. lots of stuff gg on. so exciting.

let's go!!

i need to put away the distractions. in my head.

And you bother me
You posess me
You're there again
Ahead of me
And I won't let go
I won't let go

You're inside my head
Inside my head

another of those see saw phase which keeps me thinking about impossibilities. but then again, i've got many things to keep my mind occupied. rarrrrr!

2009-12-13T01:24:00.002+08:00

broke like a dog. 200 dow nthe drain. shop for xx gift. lunch buffet at lao beijing with xx n poof. random shopping with the two dumb dumb girls.

feng yun with the dudes. wtf. pang brothers should go eat ten years of shit. but nonetheless it was fun. timbre at old school was damn fun. despite lousy music thanks to lousy taste crowd. lol. only one nice song and we choose it. win. the fark sl part was damn funny though.

all in all. as ky says: good time, good night. =)

2009-12-11T01:46:00.002+08:00

swim swim swim. sun tan. shiok.

sat proves to be a spectacular day. meetin poof and xx for afternoon tea. then movie with some of the dudes and off to mount sophia for drinks!=)))

and for now. i shall minimize spending till sat comes along. i need to be rich. like damn rich. now.

2009-12-10T00:30:00.002+08:00

was just thinking that would be a nice last post to the blog. like forever. but narh.

haircut. good lunch. then dinner with kez and cs. and then cs and me couldnt control and ended up buying shoes. gg. lol. super broke.

nvm. feel shiok. alcoshopaholic.

2009-12-08T19:52:00.002+08:00

The Beatles - In my Life

There are places I'll remember
All my life though some have changed
Some forever not for better
Some have gone and some remain
All these places have their moments
With lovers and friends I still can recall
Some are dead and some are living
In my life I've loved them all

But of all these friends and lovers
There is no one compares with you
And these memories lose their meaning
When I think of love as something new
Though I know I'll never lose affection
For people and things that went before
I know I'll often stop and think about them
In my life I love you more

Though I know I'll never lose affection
For people and things that went before
I know I'll often stop and think about them
In my life I love you more
In my life I love you more

how relevant & meaningful these lyrics are( even to an asian kid like me) after so many years shows how great these guys really are.
strawberry fields forever.

2009-12-08T17:51:00.000+08:00

谁的爱放在假日的市场,

讨价还价拍卖着它的重量.

2009-12-08T13:46:00.003+08:00

nice chill out day to myself today. just completed 20 laps. must get damn fit before tailoring.

should be quite busy the rest of the week. so relac day today is perfect.

hk bkk japan. ftw. hope this will stay as planned for the coming months.

i found out i'm more of a shopaholic than alcoholic. die. very high maintenance addictions.

2009-12-07T18:21:00.003+08:00

hiking trip today was epic. fail. haha. fat boy overslept! in the end adjourn to his place to play rock band beatles. rocks!... beatles forever. it was just like singing beatles ktv but anyhow. haha. finally a way to like rock band.

and then anyhow slack around. slacking rocks.

i look forward to a fulfilling week ahead=)

2009-12-07T01:06:00.002+08:00

only during this post exam period, freedom after month of slogging, and sudden burst of parties did i really wake up. slightly.

only now i realise how uncomfortable i am being with some people. if it's just a small group. i don't want to be there. and i always tried to make myself feel otherwise. weird.

but i know i'll still do my part. and follow my rules. i know i'm sentimental even when i will no longer get emotional over some things. but it'll never be like before anymore. and i won't force myself to think otherwise.

the season for staying true to your values was always in. the season for treating myself better just came by as well. if there's one aspect i think i deserve more, this is it. really.

i don't need parties no more.

2009-12-06T00:58:00.002+08:00

i need a little time to just sit by the beach with you. doing nothing.

out the whole day. shopped endlessly for ken's birthday gift. watch and massimo. not too bad but shopped really really long. shopping communication with mms to bl to confirm if it's nice. haha. wth. thank goodness shop with kel. and then k session with kel and cs. just anyhow spam. best song some old school 80s shit. haha.

ken's birthday was fun. food was good. playing lame ass taboo all the way and jus eat eat eat. then last part of the day just zone out.

this holidays other than party i need some quality time. and some nice people to do nice quiet things together.

2009-12-05T01:43:00.002+08:00

if after yesterday's splurge, and today's ramen, finger food bonanza, wine, pina colada, and crazy indulgent live rock n roll is not enough, then yeah...post exams are anti climax. good enough for me already a post exam treat.

but tmr follows. karaoke. birthday party. and soccer match to top it off. fuckin high. and mighty.

lovely bones: the penguin was all alone in the snow globe. and i worried for him. but daddy said: don't worry susie, he has a nice life. he's trapped in a perfect world.

what a perfect world indeed.

holidays ftw. don't let it stop.

2009-12-04T02:40:00.003+08:00

exams are over. hope i did well.

party round 1 just over. 2 chilli crab, i black pepper crab, drunken prawns, you tiao stuffed with sotong paste, sambal kang kong, marble goby a.k.a soon hock...and many many deep fried man tou. eat that MPSH!!!!! ahahahaha.

round 1 warm up: whisky at mulligan's in 5 mins. round 2: grey goose bottle at wild elephant. round 3: baileys caramel at river side. pawnage!

an i bet allison's drunk like dog now.

tomorrow's high tea at TWG with keeg shopping and then ramen and drinks with mau dudes. don't let the party stop. lalalalalalalalala.

2009-12-03T13:58:00.001+08:00

how classic. but the chinese version by huang mei zhen can hear until cry. this one better. lol.

2009-12-02T21:30:00.001+08:00

not too bad. but not fantastic also. hmm. don't care. tomorrow is d day! hell yes. chilli crab and many many many shots of whisky. here i come!!!!!!!

2009-12-02T02:27:00.000+08:00

still awake now. finished mugging for yesterday. ready to start in 5 hours time for today.

but first a swim at 7am. swimming is doing wonders for my studying. yet again.

rarrrrrr! pawn.

2009-12-01T15:52:00.002+08:00

not a bad outing at dear mpsh today. again. might achieve target after all.

the horror when heading towards lunch we realised hy didn't follow instructions and did not do one question. fuck. that's ggfied. a timely warning to not let guard down. unfortunately had to happen to hy. oh wells.

can't wait for...thursday seafood dinner. clarke quay drinks marathon. friday high tea and shopping with keeg. fri movie and drinks outing with the maju dudes. saturday karaoke session. sat birthday party. sunday morning trek. sunday shopping with mum. what a blast! lalalalal. come on!=)

2009-11-30T20:44:00.002+08:00

amazingly, i did quite well for today's maths thinking paper. a crazy module with crazy maths. haha. and with 1 day of studying only nia. i'm so damn smart. ok. maybe that one day of 12 hours can actually be understoof as 4 days of effort. yeas! it would be damn funny if my GEMS also get A. then my su would be useless. haha.

putting in effot really makes a difference in life. like today. and the next few days. but those little little bits of encouragement is so even more important. totally fixed on getting this done in a good fashion.

lalalalalala. happy days to come=)

2009-11-23T23:22:00.001+08:00

his showmanship sux. that's why they rock.

2009-11-23T22:55:00.003+08:00

goodness. finally acc exam over. lucky to get away with an B+ for that. must pia remaining modules to get A+ la. chum on.

One week of peace and studying shiok.

bought nice shirt and polo. very happy with them. bought The killers ticket. insanely happy.

spin spin spin my propeller.

rarr.

2009-11-21T23:34:00.003+08:00

if lucky will get A for today's paper. amazing considering i started studying for it errrr...yesterday?

after monday there'll be peace by the river, there'll be peace by the river, there'll be peace by the river in my soul!

and i just don't understand how some people can make you feel like a complete stranger in a situaton. it's just amazing. priorities my dear. priorities.

gimme today my daily shot of whisky! rarrrrr.

2009-11-20T02:08:00.001+08:00

dinner and drinks with nus peeps. woohoo. exams on sat and i can still afford that? so zai ah?

tmr must chiong like a dog. xiao liao.

core modules pawn. Gems try.

after exams wild of yesterday will jus be the norm! rarrrrrrrrrrrr!!!!!!!!!

2009-11-18T01:15:00.002+08:00

"i'm too young to feel this old"

can you believe it? it's just been a few months into the school sem and everything's changed. the things we revolve around, the people we hang out most with, our fav hang outs, who constitutes 'we'. and soon all our priorities and values, loves and muse all change beyond recognition. and we wouldn't even notice.

but of course change is the name of the game. we're too busy to even stop and think.

oh. maybe i'm not so busy mugging after all. i'm still here emo-ing away. goodness.

2009-11-17T10:53:00.002+08:00

another morning and here i am mugging away at BK Arts waiting to collect history term paper. the grade will give me a gauge of whether i will Su the module and thus if i need to even study for it.

need to start working out mans. getting fat. hall go for my daily swim schedule since it's exam period. starting from tmr. hurrah.

swimming is very peaceful. when u dive your head into the water, everything is drowned out. literally. and it's only you and your thoughts.

and...i'm going to check toto result, nwwwwwwwws.

2009-11-16T01:51:00.002+08:00

after outings, back home muggin away again. took time off to read books ky gave me.

i must say books normally for birthday is cui. but this year is damn zai. bel's books were wit hthe freakin author's signature and birthday wishes!!!madness zai. ky's books were exactly what i wanted to read. crazy.

and not untrue not unkind is amazing prose.

"i almost feel grateful to him, the prying ol' bastard. he's given me something to hide from again, and hiding is almost a game."

meetin hy for breakfast tmr then mug at HSS again. let's go.

hide from the hiding game.

2009-11-15T17:29:00.001+08:00

there there. another 5 hours of mugging clocked at HSS library. pawn ass.

and now for dinner with the nt peeps.

and some shopping at vivo. woohoo!

more muggin later. so happy=)

2009-11-14T20:06:00.002+08:00

holy cow. got piss high again yesterday. freaking drink and drink at fraser suites for van and nick's birthday party. bloody madness. guilty for making van drunk. lol. and in the process i lost my specs only realising today morning. i miss my army specs. gosh.

and right now i'm mugging in nus. freaking madness. laugh at jokes in the lecture notes and tutorials. how insane have i become.

can't wait for exams to end and go malaysia for class trip and hong kong to party with erik and chill/shop. damn shiok just to think about it.

i love the whole exam process. see if tmr got energy to go hiking at alexandra heights. taste buds still bland.

and of course, we can choose to have fun=) don't look back in anger.

2009-11-13T01:18:00.002+08:00

mugging in school. duck rice was fantastic.

mugging in town even more zai. macs is ok. starbucks is cool. but we're too zai, we study in atas pub that's like quiet and nice. Ice cold beer with wings in blue cheese dip. thank u v much. service of the girl is zai also. yeas!

continue mugging streak tmr. early start, breakfast with class peeps at 7 am!!! then off to mug. omg. mugging is so damn fun=)

2009-11-11T23:52:00.002+08:00

more muggin. late night food at clementi this time. tsingtao beer and carlsberg tis time. fat ass soon. im v motivated in times like these. loves muggin periods cause it keeps my mind off things.

talkin to fren abt relationship gt me tinkin again. i dun like tinkin abt such stuff. not nw. not ever. again. i just don;t get it. how people can be persistent on stupid things and nonchalant about others. i'm just damn not in sync with this school of thought. maybe i'm just too damned weird.

weird= not feeling what others feel and feeling everything others don't. insensitive sensitive bastard.

2009-11-11T10:35:00.002+08:00

crazy night of mugging. Mug in HSS till 10. Supper at bak kut teh stall. Then drinkin session. whiskey choya heineken. nice. allison damn garang. chiong wadever she kena. lol. tipsy, we head to boon tong kee for chix rice. returns home at 2 am, all filled to the brim with food and alcohol. and more motivation to work hard after the fun!

rarrrrrrr!!!!!!!

2009-11-10T00:31:00.002+08:00

gonna study away all my blues.
scribble them all over my sleeve.

gonna listen to all those blues.
in fact, i'm gonna wear blue. tmr.

lalala. sad songs make me happy. mugging makes me happy.
the mad world of a mad boy.
take it away, whiskey.

2009-11-09T20:09:00.001+08:00

realise i very broke again. after 2 weeks of being v rich. lol. gg. thk god for the ang baos from mum aunt and friends. if not deficit now. now...all i'm left with = vivo vouchers. date me out to vivo only. thanks. lol.

camping season has started. exam periods are damn fun.

don't let them change you.

2009-11-09T16:27:00.002+08:00

neh neh. man u lose again. to quote dear ris: knnbccb.

dan kenna force to eat dinner with my family. lol. wth. in the end only drink bourbon cola. cui. lol. out of nowhere, living room becomes harry with 5 men watchin lousy match. boohoo.

study!

2009-11-08T00:09:00.002+08:00

with the completion and printing of acc project, the semester's proj hustle n bustle is over. next week on it's full steam ahead for exams prep. boot camp=)

haven't caught a million movies that i want to watch. district 9. 500 days of summer. julia n julia. tis is it. sadness. oh, but tried 4 makan sutra stalls today at alexandra food village: shui jing bao, claypot laksa, mutton soup, avocado juice. winnaaaaaaaaar!

and i'm spending $ like dog. need to restrain myself. hy not doing her job. lol.

and after opening the gifts, there was elation, happiness then finally now, emptiness. =S

looking forward to the new week. determination=)

2009-11-03T09:22:00.003+08:00

gettin used to the mac. should be q soon. and it's time to pick up the gear for studies and revision now that projects and stuff are almost all over. chiong to the end before one times good holiday in DEC. hurrah.

2009-11-01T15:43:00.004+08:00

and i'm so scared to lose these moments.
sometimes i feel like death is but a moment i've been through.
the times when i seek to remember but failed.
those emotions i try to summon but falter.
and the lingering hope just fades.
and disappointment swallows joy.
when i try to find an excuse but am not convinced.
are you?

jus post party emo. and thus bs.

2009-11-01T15:21:00.004+08:00

had a really really good time yesterday. it was worth it. seriously. madness with the rain and all, but every1 braved the rain. zai. it was wise to only invite closer friends, obviously. banter was easy and no awkward moments. yeahs.

the gifts were fantastic. np gang: 21 cool ass gifts. like how thoughtful.pawn ass. ozt: big big ang bao. army dudes+andeous n ken: polaroid. xx n poof: braun buffel wallet. nus peeps: Hugo Boss! Pawn ass books that i wanted from ky. Pawn ass cash vouchers from cs kez n gang. Cd and vcd that i want from des. cool ass t from shilyiang. Super my style geek long sleeve from keeg n gang. flashy zara bag from sandra and iat. CD from dx. cool leather belt from sean. ac girls' sexy babe. jack daniels from cy. ok. got it all noted down.

luckily food was prepared be4 hand. glad to hear that it was good. worth the effort. and money. all the drinks was finished other than a bit of whisky. so not overkill after all.

all in all, it was great. happiness from 7 to 3. win. but got disappointments of course. not the torrential rain. that was actually a good thing as it turned out. first disappointment was obviously that keeg couldn't come cause of family stuff. second was sloth n sx was only here briefly, didn't even manage to talk to them much. not to mention have a chat over drinks.

where got people had fun, gifts, yadayadayada still so much emo and complaints 1? thus the change.

hurrah. nothing's gonna stop us now=)

2009-10-30T21:42:00.002+08:00

wow. crazy busy. projects like dog. basically it's lessons project eat sleep lessons project eat sleep. but i'm proud to say i have emerged victorious. all the projects pawn ass. it's like i'm a certified video editor nw. hell yea.

and.......tmr's party time. hoohah.

and.......fantastic idea for overseas trip nxt sem break. and....after sat, it's time for more projects. goodness.

2009-10-24T00:02:00.002+08:00

wa. very busy. but happy end to the week. thank you nus. i will love you veli veli much 4ever n ever. lol. nus biz to b more accurate. loves you muacks muacks. haha.

sean's party was jus food, beer, chit chat, go home. not so bad although ac ppl all never turn up!!!!

next week proves to be mad. law video due. mno video due. history essay due. lectures till 9pm. make up lecture on sat. my party on saturday! wtf wtf wtf?!

but i'm still a happy boy. yes yes yes.

2009-10-20T01:20:00.003+08:00

wow. it's shocking i might actually do damn well for my maths test. seems like i'm smarter than i thought i already am. what to do. anyways, LKY was damn bloody zai. idol. seriously. if 80 plus still so pawn ass, how to win?

smooth transition towards final exams has started with projects drawing to a close. shall reward myself with drinks outing with ky n dan. if i die young, please don't cry for me. i lived it up.

in other news. happier.

2009-10-18T14:57:00.002+08:00

holy. tmr's maths thinking test. the most pawn ass test ever. lol. hopefully i can scrape past it with my awful intelligence considering i sleep half of the lectures and skip the other half. zzz.

fri's birthday dinner with kex they all was great. the whole restaurant staring at us as the birthday song was sung by live band was damn classic. lol. birthday lunch with poof and xuan was great too. obviously. just random shop and chit chat for like 5 plus hours. mad people=)

next week proves to be less entertaining. i think. busy like dog with one million submission and official appointments. sunday dad's birthday also.

but with new formula in mind, everything will work out fine. work, life and priorities. me needs to watch 500 days of summer nwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwws.

2009-10-15T15:13:00.002+08:00

got back acc results. hmm. not bad. so let's work from there.

busy week coming to an end. kez's birthday dinner at serenity tmr. cool. poof's birthday lunch on sat. next week is crazier. 4 days of formal wear. namely for LKY speech on mon, interview workshop on tuesday, career services on wed, scholarship tea ceremony on thursday. i like formal but not to that extent la! bring it on, friday also make something happen la. zzz.

and i must emphasize how much i need to watch where the wild things are. totally my kind of kids flick!!!! love. and the song. damn bloody zai. live not so zai, but melody and lyrics pawn. mad kids singing wild song. how apt.

2009-10-14T00:07:00.002+08:00

i think i'm very brave to hold a birthday party. for various reasons.

1)I'm very broke.

2)I'm very tired.

3)A lot of people= v shag.

4)I haven't recruited party helpers a.k.a friends.

5)I think i'm not happy enough for a happy birthday. and i don't like this kind of attention on me.

so i dunnoe why i still hold the birthday party. as usual. i'm crazy. and mad. and sometimes sad. for no reason. and tomorrow's a sad day. i can sense it. like yesterday. lalala.

acc grades cheer me up pls. kez birthday party cheer me up pls. cheryl birthday lunch cheer me up pls. $$$ from nus cheer me up pls. fund raising cheer me up pls. finishing all my work and project cheer me up please. lala.

2009-10-11T15:39:00.002+08:00

still contemplating whether should have party. and zy's celeb made me think abit too. not as if it's a big deal anyways. just to have or not to have now.

needs to watch 500 days of summer.

want to watch where the wild things are!!!!!!!! omg la. it's like the best kids book ever. and the movie looks as good=)

wonderful end to the year please.

2009-10-10T02:07:00.002+08:00

dim sum buffet with class peeps. food sux but outing was fun.

afternoon slumber. buy cake. zy birthday celeb!

korean bbq. super zai. super ex.

drinks at barrosa esplanade. martell vsop.

zy pulked on the way home. send him home. jog back from end of clementi.

don't play play with ur zainess here. woohoo. sat= further studies day. rawr! played hard work hard cycle all over again. lalala.

2009-10-09T17:17:00.002+08:00

there are better songs in this album but what an appropriate song to fall in love with now.

Noah & the Whale
Blue skies

This is a song for anyone
With a broken heart
This is a song for anyone
Who can't get out of bed

I'll do anything
To be happy
Oh cause blue skies are calling
But I know that it's hard

This is the last song
That I write
While still in love with you

This is the last song
That I write
While you're even on my mind

Cause it's time to leave
Those feelings behind
Oh cause blue skies are calling
But I know that it's hard

I don't think that it's the end
But I know we can't keep going
I don't think that it's the end
But I know we can't keep going

But blue skies are calling
Oh yeah blue skies are calling
Oh blue skies are calling
But I know that it's hard

2009-10-08T02:10:00.002+08:00

last min cancellation of pub outing by ky has made me v sad. on the bright side, me who chiong work so that i could go drink tmr is nw ahead of schedule. well done. and dim sum buffet plus korean bbq on fri makes me v happy.

nonchalance? i've got aplenty too.

moving on, term paper completion in sight. it's damn zaaaaaaaaaai. everything is fallin in place and i'm v glad. irish pub grub me want now! boo.

2009-10-06T23:11:00.001+08:00

more and more friends asking about birthday. and it's a real headache.

it dawned on me that i really like organising friends' birthday party but not my own?!!!!! and it's really sian. but somehow not complete, and the feeling not right to miss our on having a 21st birthday party. worst, if different groups ask out on same day, how?!

ggfied. lalalalalalala.

2009-10-06T21:56:00.002+08:00

e week is damn slack can. got time to further revise and do term paper and still do some outings. nice.

tomorrow is a bloody boring day. career service till like 6. bloody shit. i'm not going to let you bring me down!!!! rawr!

looking forward to pubbing on thursday. dim sum buffet on fri. and finishing my piece de resistance term paper by this week.

gonna find some nice album to listen to nowwwwwwwwwwws.

2009-10-05T10:49:00.002+08:00

nice night. shopping with ky n fatboy for ws gift turned out fruitless. End up raffles city voucher. Cui but zai. lol. Of course barcook raisin cream bun made it all worthwhile=)

and off we went to A9710 for food. and drinks.1 for 1!!! the food was not bad. seriously the seafood pasta is god like. atmosphere was nice but the whole place was deserted making it a bit weird for us. good food, 1 for 1, why will be empty?!

still unsatisfied, we made our way to macs to fill us up. mcspicy has returned back to form with thigh meat!!! and us being mad people, we bough sake to put into our green tea and coke. yumyum=) and there was soccer in macs too. nice outing after one month of not meeting up. and we promise to visit mulligan's soon=)

despite changing to sunday sloth didn't make it. cui. and the change has caused frank to be unable to turn up due to test, my bad.=( oh wells, yesterday was ws's night, so whatever.

lalala. e-week allows late slumbers. hurrah!

2009-10-03T19:39:00.002+08:00

woohoo. finish acc test and i think i did q well=) happiness. can't wait to get back history results next week. lol. wonder how me frank and ken did. haha! hopefully not a disaster.

next week yet again very busy. two birthdays coming up. xinyi's back from australia. mno project. term papers need to be done. cool shit! need to get back into drinking groove tmr! haha.

so nothing to be worried about. or sad. just lalala away your days. rock band's fun at last! beatles!!!=)))

2009-09-30T22:57:00.000+08:00

2009-09-30T22:48:00.002+08:00

haven't been touched by a song so much in a long long time. maybe because i haven't been so fragile in a long long time. the wisdom of these words gives me strength and hope to live the days ahead so much better than yesterday. and for those who don't believe songs do change the world, bless you.

"慢慢地合唱k歌
静静地同游网上
再发现岁月换来几次厌闷几多亲爱
有各样劫灾和充满意外

因此我要努力继续能恋爱"...

to that i throw away my sorrow and start yet another pledge to live happily=) where got lyrics so zai one?

陈奕迅 - 今天只做一件事

发觉这世界永远太少空间
因此花一天支配一切时间
发觉这世界永远太晒心机
因此花一天思索一切道理
消失太快捉得到太少
因此花一天感觉一切是爱
茫茫人海
或有几多漂泊与淹盖

人人寻找爱
或有几多争斗与比赛
越觉得剩低几多未变的爱
慢慢地合作新诗
静静地同床午睡
再发现岁月换来几次厌闷几多亲爱
有各样劫灾和充满意外
因此我要努力继续能恋爱

慢慢地迈向听朝
静静地怀念昨日
再决定今天只要相信爱
叫皱纹散开唤青春归来
因此我喜欢花一天感觉一切是爱
发觉这世界永远太少深刻
因此花一天改变一切习惯
发觉这世界永远太多跷蹊
因此花一天拥有一切运气
消失太快捉得到太少
因此花一天感觉一切是爱
茫茫人海
或有几多漂泊与淹盖

人人寻找爱
或有几多争斗与比赛
越觉得剩低几多未变的爱
慢慢地合唱k歌
静静地同游网上
再发现岁月换来几次厌闷几多亲爱
有各样劫灾和充满意外
因此我要努力继续能恋爱
慢慢地迈向听朝
静静地怀念昨日
再决定今天只要相信爱
叫皱纹散开唤青春归来
因此我喜欢花一天感觉一切是爱
喜欢花一天跟你一切是爱

2009-09-29T02:03:00.002+08:00

doing term paper till 2am with the wind howling like mad outside gets me super peak out emo.

friends asking abt my birthday party didn't help.

pms sets in. frm super dunnoe what to depression like emo nw. tmr morning, upon stepping onto campus, having done all my work n revision, should brighten up again=)